3. 2. 1. Bungee

I always wanted to bungee jump. It is more of an influence than want. I heard that adventurous activities make you feel alive, how it brings changes in you. It makes you feel so low your problems are. So, those were the reasons I wanted to bungee jump. I have done scuba diving once but I didn't like the experience as there was nothing to experience. There were just good pictures of me in the water to post in social media so that people seeing can feel low that he has done so many things but it didn’t bring me good happiness. That might be because I had some other guy carrying me and making me do like babysitting. I knew nothing would happen to me so there was not any adrenaline rush or any other thing, I always wanted to do any adventurous activities alone either it be a major thing like skydiving, scuba diving or minor like this one bungee jumping. So, finally I got a chance to go bungee jumping with 5 of my other friends. We went to Bhotekoshi. We all were excited and boasted to each other about why we weren't scared until we went to the rocking bridge. Once we stepped to the bridge and looked down to the river, different kinds of excitement went to my heart and it was not all happiness and it was not all fear but there was a lot of fear. But it went out in a few seconds, we went to the counter, paid the fees, listened to a few instructions and came back to the rocking bridge to bungee. When my turn came, I was a bit nervous, also excited to do it until I stepped out down through a bar. The excitement suddenly went out and it was all fear. When I slowly moved my legs forward in millimeters, the unsayable fear was rushing through my mind. I was just thinking if I even move a nanometer of my feet forward, I am just gonna fall. And the irony is that I was there to fall but that was the reason I was afraid of now, then I heard 3,2,1 Bungee… Hearing those words I just jumped out of the bridge and then the feeling was just surreal. I always have thoughts in my mind, when people say my mind is without thoughts most of the time, I feel WTF are they talking about. But a few seconds after jumping from the bridge my mind was completely thoughtless. I knew what it is to be when you are completely thoughtless and it felt good until rope tugged me upwards, then my mind started to get thoughts, I wished I was thoughtless forever but then I knew I should pull the rope to be upside down then I knew I was back to same again which I never wanted to be again.